THE JUNGLE OF SIGHS

My soul I despise.
For where does it dwell?
In the jungle of sighs.
I cannot realize
The sound of the bell.
The bell’s tolling note
Musically floats
Askance of me,
In a nebulous key,
In sunset and sunrise,
Daily, strange, nightly, wise.
My soul I despise.
For where does it dwell?
Oh, it does well
In the jungle of sighs,
In the sad hearted jungle of sighs.

She is good and she is true.
Now what do I do?
Her soul I despise,
For my soul stays,
In my days upon days,
In the jungle of sighs.
With a language of sighs
I do what I do.
With a language of sighs
I pretend to be true,
In a language of sighs
Which breathes and swells
And hums over valleys
And liquid dells,
And laughs to discover
Ignorance all over,
Fortuitous disorder,
And the undaunted valleys
And the broken bells.
My speech it dwells
With languishing lies
In the jungle of sighs.

And I grope and I gasp—
I pray it will pass,
The fever that darkens,
The pleasure that hearkens
Too fast—too fast!
But I know forever the fever will last,
(Yes I know forever the fever will last)
I know this as well
As I know my own past.
Oh, the bell! The bell!
What can it tell?
That I could know faster,
That I could see well!
That I might love it!
That music to master,
That knowledge might touch it!
Old, old bell!
Oh, melodious bell,
Do you know where I dwell?
With the senseless throng.
Then send me a song
Past these hideous trees,
Traveling long!
Longer than starting, hesitating breezes,
Longer than life’s uncovered diseases.
I lie at my ease—at my ease!
I breathe the scent which lingers in trees,
That will not relent—
Oh torturous spell!
Inside my tent
I drink at my ease,
I find the disease
My conscience and cry.
But my soul is outside,
My soul I despise,
For with it I dwell
Away from the bell
In the jungle of sighs.

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