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Wake up, poem, get out of bed.

Last night you were born, an immaculate love, all inside my head.

Go, poem! no more aspiring;

The fading surge of romantic night is retiring.

By evening light, we discussed evening and its philosophy

Like two lovers.  Today, you must leave me.

You were a late afternoon idea, and destined to please me in the night.

Now you must be a poem for real, and go out into the light.

Let’s see if they love you, the metaphor of the “evening tree,”

And let’s see if I am revealed in your shadowy philosophy.

Let’s see if the evening by day’s eye is fed.

Let’s see if love is the love, last night, we loved inside my head.

You must be seen and loved, you must be inspected.

Hopefully, all that was wrong last evening will never be detected.

The light will come through the window. They call it “pitiless day.”

But as they quietly look, the flaws might escape them, anyway.

I know. I seem cold. My mood has changed. I’m thinking of other things.

But I do this to all my poems. I’m mute while the poem sings.

It’s over. You are finished. Get up, please, you can’t stay.

If you remain in my head, poetry will go away.

Pray for the evening, pray for love! Pray for the evening sea!

And don’t worry, I promise if they hate you, you can still love me.




  1. noochinator said,

    January 10, 2019 at 1:19 pm

    One thing that helps me wake up each morning, and gives me a good snapshot of where my head is at (in order to show me in what direction I should move), is the “Proust Questionnaire”, so named b/c Proust took it and gave Proustian answers. I try to take it every morning; below are the questions and my answers for today:

    What is your idea of perfect happiness? Having enough money so that I’m not required to earn any additional money; being healthy in body and mind
    What is your greatest fear? Being without sufficient money; being sick; being crippled
    What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? Timidity, sloth
    What is the trait you most deplore in others? Lack of consideration for others
    Which living person do you most admire? Domina Claire Hex; Murray Perahia
    What is your greatest extravagance? Food; personal training sessions; music; books
    What is your current state of mind? Repressed worry; optimistic pessimism
    What do you consider the most overrated virtue? Mercy to excess, that puts other persons in danger
    On what occasion do you lie? When another’s feelings are at stake
    What do you most dislike about your appearance? Facial expression displays my inner turmoil
    Which living person do you most despise? **REDACTED**
    What is the quality you most like in a man? Kindness
    What is the quality you most like in a woman? Kindness
    Which words or phrases do you most overuse? F–k & other obscenities
    What or who is the greatest love of your life? K. MacD.; DCH
    When and where were you happiest? Around age 12-14, when my evil actions had not yet bred consequences; in the military when I got paid very well
    Which talent would you most like to have? Skilled trade that pays well
    If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? My financial situation
    What do you consider your greatest achievement? Putting Dubal interviews & other arts-related materials at YouTube
    If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be? Son of a wealthy man who passed on to me everything he knew about life, business, making money
    Where would you most like to live? In a nice area of a big city
    What is your most treasured possession? My laptop computer
    What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? Poverty or illness
    What is your favorite occupation? Reading; riding music/movies
    What is your most marked characteristic? Wariness; fear
    What do you most value in your friends? Optimism; intellectual ferment
    Who are your favorite writers? Quentin Crisp, Bruce Jay Friedman, D.H. Lawrence
    Who is your hero of fiction? Autolycus in ‘The Winter’s Tale’; Wapshot family men in Cheever novels; Harry Towns in Friedman’s ‘About Harry Towns’
    Which historical figure do you most identify with? Adlai Stevenson or some other noble loser — Daniel Webster, John Quincy Adams
    Who are your heroes in real life? Quentin Crisp, Perahia et al., Andrew Davis et al., Bruce Jay Friedman et al., Robert Plant
    What are your favorite names? Claire, Kathleen
    What is it that you most dislike? Decayed infrastructure; decayed humans
    What is your greatest regret? Doing drugs as a teen
    How would you like to die? Instantly
    What is your motto? Save money during the fat years

  2. Desdi said,

    January 10, 2019 at 8:54 pm

    The ante-penultimate regret I share and empathize with you.
    I pray for my kids to not go there.

    But I could never wake up to a list like this.

    • noochinator said,

      January 11, 2019 at 2:33 pm

      You don’t like the questions?

      • thomasbrady said,

        January 11, 2019 at 3:28 pm

        This kind of self-scrutiny would drive me crazy. I find it morbid. Noble, yes. But also morbid. Maybe I’m not good enough for a list like this? I would rather take just one of the questions, and write a poem about it, deeply explore layers and contradictions of it and finally come up with something beautiful.

        • noochinator said,

          January 11, 2019 at 4:15 pm

          The answer that changes the most each day is, “What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?” The answer keeps getting longer: currently it’s timidity, sloth, inaction, short attention span….

      • Desdi said,

        January 11, 2019 at 6:33 pm

        The Qs are valuable… but not the sort of thing I want dwell on upon arising to a new day.

        • noochinator said,

          January 12, 2019 at 5:40 pm

          Yes, It might be more valuable to answer them in the evening when the lessons of the day are still smarting….

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