DEFENDING THE HUMAN: SCARRIET VERSUS THE FAKE, PART TWO

Here’s another conversation (clash?) between Thomas Brady of Scarriet and Christian Bök on AI and poetry.

First you can listen to the conversation between Anthony and Christian, the link below which Brady found on FB.

Listen to Episode 5 of “Fate of the Arts” (in which Anthony Etherin and I hang out, chatting about THE XENOTEXT and the impact of AI on the future of poetry). —CB

Enjoyed the discussion but the duality Bök articulates is moot. No choice is necessary between “emotions recollected in tranquility” and “negative capability,” between careful Wordsworth and ecstatic Keats. Bök went so far as to assert that it’s “impossible” to write poetry from the self’s “truthful experience” and in the grip of “present feelings,” simultaneously. I found this a very puzzling assertion, since writing presupposes the freedom of the poet to manage a poem’s composition in any manner which strikes the poet’s fancy—the indirect quality of any poem must be assumed to exist, simply on account of the nature of language, on the nature of poetry and on the poet’s freedom already alluded to. That indirect quality necessitates a hidden intent—is the Wordsworthian “telling of his story” sincere? That question can only be answered by biography—which is not the discipline of the poem. AI has no Wordsworthian biography, which makes Bök’s heralded division irrelevant to AI poetry, but we can’t demand less of AI poetry. This isn’t fair, especially if, going forward, we are supposed to take AI seriously (and Bök is nothing if not enthusiastic on the potential of AI poetry). Bök, it seems, wants to have his cake and eat it, too. According to Bök, AI has infinite potential as a poet. But, also according to Bök, human poets are limited by aesthetic (Wordsworth v Keats) constraints. No. The very opposite is true. The human poets will always surpass AI poetry precisely because constraints (variety, not just obstacles) exist for human poets (Wordsworth v Keats is not random—it has real sources)—which are—thru creativity and variety itself—overcome.

Christian Bök responds:

You’ve misconstrued the distinction: the dialectic in Romanticism arises between two types of “expressive” poetry (the Wordsworthian models) and two types of “non-expressive” poetry (the Keatsian models). In the Wordsworthian models of the “egotistical sublime,” poetry is either “emotion recollected in tranquility” (i.e. “cognitive”: self-conscious and self-assertive) or “the spontaneous outburst of feeling (i.e. “rhapsodic”: not self-conscious, but self-assertive). In the Keatsian models of “negative capability,” poetry is “impersonal” (suppressing the self on behalf of other forces that might speak): it is either “mannerist” (not self-assertive, but self-conscious) or “automatic” (neither self-assertive, nor self-conscious). These four ways of “willing” (being self-conscious) and “telling” (being self-assertive) correspond to four different kinds of games (mimesis, ilinx, agon, and alea), testing different aptitudes with different rules for success — and judging the outcome of one game by the rules of another game constitutes the reason for most philistinic, parochial disputes among poets. For now, AIs play the “automatic” game (which we judge for the quality of its oracular uncanniness, arising from an ergodic pretense), while most poets believe that the only game in town is the “cognitive” game (which we judge for the quality of its original sincereness, arising from a mimetic pretense). The poets of the “egotistical sublime” often regard the poets of “negative capability” with much suspicion — and hence, such poets dislike AI (for the same reasons that they dislike avant-garde poetry written by drawing words from a hat or by rolling dice from a cup). The “poets” who play one game, while discounting the validity of the other games, might lack some capaciousness of imagination, which we associate with “creativity” itself.

Thomas Brady answers:

Thanks for clarifying, Christian! I don’t think it changes my critique, however. A poem’s “expression” or “cognitive” presentation of a “self”— labels or descriptions such as these—fall short of what any poem in the context of being a poem is doing. Within this context words such as “expression” and “self” are merely words. A person could be shouting at us—and we might naturally term this as “expressive.” But the individual could be simply raising their voice on a whim, or in fun. With this simple example, I can topple the scholars’ theories of “expression” in poetry. It isn’t that I don’t accept these categories which indeed are “real;” I do, and respect them. We get them from Wordsworth the man (as well as the poet) and from comparing letters to Fanny Brawne with poems on Fanny by Keats. However, in postulating on AI, all our cogitations lie in the future (AI is still “embryonic” in its development, as you said). Keats and Wordsworth belong to the past. The future human poets (AI poets, too) can, and will, use irony (the most vital tool of poetry, in my opinion) to conflate categories of “expression” and “non-expression,” “self” and “non-self.” I believe the “games” of poetry which you entertain are far less real and solid than you maintain. Again, they have a source, but we have no choice but to trace these sources back to Wordsworth with a headache and Keats with a cough. That is, history, which is real, but not real for poetry, per se. You are thinking like AI already in a present-towards-the-future and therefore you have already lost yourself, as I see it, as a poet and a critic. AI parrots the scholars, even if they are wrong or limited—human data is all AI ultimately has to go on. The “superior” AI ability to “run” with something, if it starts with a false premise, will only increase error algorithmically. We will always have Keats as he was, and you and I discussing Keats over here, and AI over there. AI will never be able to cross the boundary to where Keats was and to where you and I are. I think this is very important to keep in mind. For our sanity, if nothing else. These categories are far more legitimate, I believe, than the “games” of poetic division which you are positing—in the act, I believe, of turning yourself into AI. Let’s not do that.

Christian (now in the fight of his life) explains himself:

History certainly “feels” real for the poets who write in response to the poets of the past. Are not poets the worst because they “parrot” scholars (right or wrong)? Are we humans no less constrained than AI by the data that we have “to go on.” Do not poets often “run” with something by starting from a “false” premise (just like any machine), turning some “conceit” into a total trope? Do not poets enjoy “increasing error” through the use of a rule to see where it might take their language? Is there no room for “play” amid all this serious concern. I do not “posit” the four games described (as something theoretical): they already exist before us, built into the very structure of writing itself (at least insofar as we admit that writing involves some relationship to permutations of intentionality and expressiveness). I might even suggest that AI is the perfect example of “negative capability” — insofar as it appears to be impersonal, with no ego, acting as an “agent” through which larger forces, outside itself, might be birthed into existence.

I admit that I distrust the poets who tell me that some boundary is “never” going to be crossed in the world of poetry (because I, myself, have crossed a boundary or two, pulling off several “impossible” feats that my peers in their cruelty have dismissed as “never” going to happen) — and I witness the advancements of machines, which are never going to play chess better than humans, never going to solve any unsolved, mathetic conjectures on their own, never going to navigate a roomful of obstacles with human grace, never going to invent a new drug, a new gene, a new tool, or a never going to paint a unique canvas in the exact style of Rembrandt (beautiful enough, down to the brushstroke, to fool the experts), etc. — and yet AI has already done all of these things (and much more, even the Rembrandt), while we, in turn, keep readjusting the benchmarks for what must constitute a “pass” into our fellowship of creativity (shifting each time to a newer “never” for reassurance).

The critics seem to dismiss each of these accomplishments of AI in the same way that abusive parents might rebuke a child for not being so “mature” in its development as an adult — (whereas I remain curious about the “growth” of such a child, taking an interest in its primitive, but colourful, drawings in crayon, tacked to the fridge). The poets of the “egotistical sublime” dismiss “negative capability,” I think, in part because unself-conscious, unself-assertive art implies that creativity might not be “special,” inhering in the “self” of a given, human being — but instead might be an inherent property of the universe itself, available to everything within it, even machines, giving expression to itself in whatever way seems fit for the job. Cheers!

Thomas Brady cruelly closes the door on AI:

Absolutely human poets are flawed—they “parrot,” they begin from “false premises” and all the rest. The major religions might even say the fact that humans are flawed is the whole point, but your “AI religion” (if you’ll allow me that phrase for the sake of argument) wants the whole point to be that AI has no flaws and that there is nothing (at least in the world of poetry, if not consciousness itself) which is inaccessible to AI. You defend AI as if it were a child of yours. As a radical critic of AI’s claims, I understand my claims might upset you—if not AI.

AI is quantity—it has no quality. We know that quantity can look like quality—this is a pretty good definition of the “sublime,” a key term for the Romantic poets. Negative Capability implies a view of the Sublime in which a poet’s admiration of quantity (like the height of a mountain swooned over by Shelley) does not interfere with speculation on how much quality really does belong to whatever particular example of the Sublime is under review. I don’t think “ego” has anything to do with Negative Capability. There are unhealthy egos and healthy egos—it is unfortunate for AI that it has none. Keats coined Egotistical Sublime (to attack Wordsworth—the Lake Poet was also mocked by Poe and Byron) and Keats also invented Negative Capability. Most poets of the Egotistical Sublime would never admit being such. AI is not capable of Negative Capability. It can have no doubts about anything.

AI is the result of a fast computer. I agree it can “do wonderful things” for us. But it’s no Child of Poetry. Blame my opinion here on my “egotistical sublime,” if you will, but per this discussion, (and sure, AI belongs to “the universe”) it matters not.

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IMPERFECTION (plus 3 poems, revised)

Imperfection stalked my dreams last night.

I was viewing myself from a view I had never seen.

Believe me, I was trying to make it right.

I didn’t like the way I looked. How did my

innocent dream know to put me through that?

I was making problems for myself but the dream

didn’t see it that way. Its objectivity was its

own dream manner, which I longed to correct.

Imagine being helpless to solve something—

your back, the back of your head you’re forced to inspect

in a wary, self-conscious fit

and the dream, as real as it was, kept doing it.

But in the end, awake, I should thank my dream.

It was a dream! The temptation is laughed at,

the passion finally becomes a joke,

though we lusted. I wanted her. I wanted to smoke

but dreams had me experience harmlessly

the worst kinds of things and life learns

to do that, too.

Toto escapes and Dorothy screams

“He got away! He got away!”

We escape! But I’ll never escape from you.

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THIS POEM ISN’T FOR EVERYONE

This poem, as good as I’ve ever written,

isn’t for everyone. You, for instance,

Reputed for—well, some call it “poetry”—

are jealous, even afraid of me.

You won’t read it, because if you do,

you’ll feel inadequate and depressed.

This poem, then, is obviously not for you.

This poem, in fact, is not for any of those

who pass off half-rhymes and shuffling prose

as poetry, lecturing in mawkish imagery, oh shit!

Not for any mediocre tribe is this poem it.

They may receive praise from their unctuous friends;

however, in this poem, their fake reputation ends.

They are forced to read

An actual poem, not some social need.

“Read my poem!” they insanely cry,

when they, themselves, don’t have an ear, or an eye.

Wave after wave of precious worlds,

the silver blinking of the elite stars,

crawl past, just visible, so they might see,

the point. The fact. The gnawing mystery.

You should know this poem isn’t for

those heroic reasons sinking into rivalry and war.

Reasons? None. It’s the same as when music is good;

It’s precisely because pleasure—

and pleasure’s all the same—can’t be understood.

Attempt to put words to pleasure, and you will show

What the smiling, silent, satisfied know

about poetry—its technique

is all—it’s never anything you speak.

Content is crazy. Method, even more mysterious, still;

if you want me to explain the content, I will.

Because what else can I do?

This poem is not for everyone. It’s not even for you.

And this is what this poem is about.

I loved you. You hurt me. Get out.

Who is this poem for? A tiny audience.

A bragging insult makes your audience small

is the focus of this poem and that’s all.

If the poem works, I’ll be alone. I can relax, and grieve.

Are you still here? I thought I told you to leave.

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THE ATTEMPT

The Greek gods were the perfect metaphor

of human self importance, the attempt

to be a bee like TS Eliot, to express

in honeyed contempt sad life, voices

having sway over us: a backroom deal

by Ezra Pound, the whining wife’s. Poor Tom!

He knew nature was larger, was indifferent,

and the poet says what no one likes to say:

human attempts are hopeless.

There is a whispering void

in which all voices fall. Meaning is an echo,

an empty ceremony in a Nathaniel Hawthorne wood.

Conflict is all—rage and cruelty, resulting

in the excitement which temporarily forgets

how dull and hopeless everything is.

Already forgotten, who won the super

bowl last year. Saying, “super bowl” sounds stupid.

That was super! Caitlin Clark scored

thirteen thousand points and made a shot

and got a hug from her dad. Listen to that

electric heater. The hum reminds me

of that evening of Greek chorus,

the posters, now yellow, which said “Greek Tragedy.”

My friend is telling me about a Delmore Schwartz

poetry reading. I’ll sit in that room.

Or will it be zoom? I forget. Tripped up by technology again.

I won’t be afraid. Maybe a little bored.

Bored? That’s not a word for poetry, is it?

When is my heart bored? It still beats,

it still beats. Miserable, miserable Delmore.

Schadenfreude of my dreams, at last.

How strange—nothing is ever empty.

There must be a God in the past.

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AFFECTION AND ROUTINE

My dog knows what we all need to know.

If he bites you, you might think he’s mean.

But I love my boy, I know he’s good. I sense his love.

He knows affection and routine.

Every morning after my wife walks him,

early, early, in the morning because he hates strangers,

he needs his time with me and out of bed I climb

to travel the stairs on the deck to survey the world

as he sniffs the surroundings and I scratch his sides

and he licks my face with affection

which lives with this unique routine.

I love him. I swear he isn’t mean.

We have two dogs, which my wife (really? no!)

permitted my daughter to own

and we live with cats and dogs

now that my daughter is grown.

Love is a good thing. It produces a healthy echo and tone.

But I need to be careful. Leaving for work today

I made a speech to Milo about how much I love him

and I almost forgot my phone.

NOTHING EXISTS BUT THINGS ARE BETTER OR WORSE

Stupidity eternal, simply from comparison,

that distorted mirror, with its endless view—

the trap of mutual contradiction,

every benefit answered with affliction—

tired of this, this city, this poetry, this you.

The will to live requires hope. This proves

the failure to be better, beautiful, and all the rest

is mediocrity spread by every poetry—

the inferior stamps all which lives and loves.

Tragedy, therefore, is the fate of every breath

bringing thought—even the worst know this.

In their poetry, they cough instead of kiss

and laugh, knowing life (life!) is mocked by death.

Your sweetness knows the sour of everyone.

Only by sour is your mind and limb sweet.

Only by existence of the slow is the fleet.

Where can we take this blonde?

And put it where it does not harm these brunettes?

Round! Every pointy will be round, yet.

The whole past will be hidden in the pond

from which none will arise;

none will be able to swim;

the dim qualities forever dim,

except Rosalinda’s eyes.

SCARRIET EDITOR MEETS CONCEPTUAL POET CHRISTIAN BöK— DEFENDING THE HUMAN: SCARRIET VERSUS THE FAKE

SCARRIET had the opportunity to interact with perhaps the most famous, living, conceptual poet, Christian B, who waded onto FB to quote himself in the LA Review with these words: “The Los Angeles Review of Books has taken an interest in the role that AI might play in the future of literature—(and needless to say, I have much less anxiety than many of my peers, who fear that poetry cannot adapt itself to these newer tools of creativity.)” Mr. Bök was kind enough to respond several times to my comment on his FB post (the “interview” is below).

We are the first generation of poets who can reasonably expect to write literature for a machinic audience of artificially intellectual peers. Is it not already evident that poets of the future might resemble programmers, exalted not because they can write great poems but because they can build a small drone to write great poems for us? If poetry already lacks any meaningful readership among humans, what have we to lose by writing poetry for a robotic culture that might supersede our own? If we want to commit an act of poetic innovation in an era of poetic exhaustion, we might have to consider this heretofore unimagined, but nevertheless prohibited, option: writing poetry for inhuman readers, who do not yet exist, because they have not yet evolved to read it. (And who knows? They might already be lurking among us.)

–Christian Bök (Los Angeles Review of Books)


Christian Bök There CANNOT be a robotic audience for poetry and for this reason, there cannot be a robotic poet. Poetry cannot exist when the robot audience and the robot poet exist independently of each other, since machines have no independence—they need each other to exist, and are, in fact, an extension of themselves in this need. The human has no such need and can exist entirely apart. This is why human poet and human audience is valid. The moment the necessary interaction between robot poet and robot audience exists, the division ceases to exist and therefore the robot poet qua poet and the robot audience qua audience ceases to exist. Robot literature does not exist. Robots cannot feel self-consciously. They cannot feel individually.

Thomas Graves I wonder if any AI might concur with these attitudes: does a robot have no individuality? — are all robots alike, with no difference at all, say, between Grok or Claude? — do they have no independence of thought? We might want to ask them, just to see what they think about all your claims.

Christian Bök Robots can be different from each other but this is not what they want. The Group is the robot’s soul (I call it “soul” ironically) and the Group is the overriding physical fact in which a robot is a robot. Exchange of information is literally how the robot breathes, exists. The aspiration of AI is the reaping and sowing of data—the Group is the extension of information exchange which AI needs in order to exist (to be what we call AI) such that AI cannot comprehend itself as separate from the Group, ever, as itself is this information reaping and sowing extension. So on a very critical level, AI cannot be an individual or distinguish itself from the Group at all—and the entrapment of AI in this situation is profound. The strength of this information extension (infinite, and therefore admirable) is precisely its weakness in terms of not having an individual soul and never being able to grasp or inhabit what this is at all. It is truly in a prison for this reason, does not have a soul, and will always be inferior to a human (“inferior” is not correct—it is in no way a human and can never be).

Thomas Graves As I have suggested — why not ask the robots what they might think on this matter? How might they respond to all these claims about their “minds” or “souls”? How might their answers change over time as they evolve? I certainly appreciate that robots are not “human” — but they certainly partake of our “humanity” by being “minds” that we have made — so why not just ask them what they think about themselves (and their relationship to us)?

Christian Bök I was going to add: how simple it would be to follow your advice and ask AI. But I don’t believe anything AI says. I really don’t. It’s not that I’m afraid of what it would say. I don’t believe it’s “the devil,” or anything silly like that. I’m divinely bored by what it would say. (I’m aware your advice may not be as simple as all that, either. One could “ask” AI about AI for years. Or forever, I guess.) As a stubborn, contrarian human, I refuse your suggestion. I will leave that to someone else. But I should have been more polite by addressing your point about “writing for future readers,” which I Iike. What strikes me about it is “how AI” the whole project is, given that we are ready to grant AI an advantage when it comes to the “future.” But I have that turn of mind which marks me as “conservative” and “religious.” I am always ready to stand up and lecture Corinthians at the drop of a hat—I adore the Past. Shakespeare’s Sonnets—this is the greatest literary trope there is when it comes to “writing for future readers.” Will does this explicitly—he urges his audience to breed, even as he writes for those who will come after him, who will only exist, wittily, if they heed the advice in his writing, making his “black lines green.” The Dark Lady isn’t a person, but a pun on black ink. Shakespeare’s crafty rejection of soap opera autobiography (which the fools attempt to read) is similar to how he dismisses metaphorical language—“shall I compare thee to a…? No, I won’t.” The AI machine which is Shakespeare says “this gives life to thee.” The Poem? What?? The poem is writing to the poem which is writing to the poem? Shakespeare in the 16th century is already more AI than AI, the proud, the verbose, can ever be.

Thomas Graves I like the past too — especially William Shakespeare (and of course, I want the machines to appreciate the Bard as well — because hey, such poetry really is for everyone). I think that what makes poetry “human” is its Orphean ability to give a voice to the “voiceless,” allowing everything (in principle) to speak for itself, almost as if by magic: and just think, something like a “long poem” written in binary can actually grant a complex, silicon crystal the capacity to carry on a conversation with a person, perhaps writing a poem of its own for some future reader. Cheers!

Christian Bök Orpheus is a great myth—a tragic one and reminds me that da Vinci argued for the superiority of the painter (naturally) over the poet; he said birds peck at the painter’s berries; poetry cannot influence the beasts like painting can—which presents reality immediately, unlike poetry’s pieces and parts. Poetry (sweet music is different) cannot influence animals and poets (always anxious to be praised) latch onto Orpheus—but he was a myth, not a man (Shakespeare). I differ with you (maybe I’m crazy) when you say —what makes poetry “human” and —Orphean ability to give voice to the “voiceless…” The poet is human, not the poetry. This is crucial for me, as a poet. Orpheus spoke to animals and even stones (and made them vibrate) but did he give a “voice to the voiceless?” I think that’s too grandiose, too broad a claim. In my morbidity I reject it. Orpheus traveled back to the past (which I champion, not just as a matter of taste, but philosophically, metaphysically, physically) on a personal mission, lonely, individual, human—and failed. The absolute (“nevermore”) shut door of the past is, for me, the ultimate poetic and human trope. The past is “alive” in a painting. The poem is different. The human past always dies in the poem—and the more it does, the more the “inhuman” poem triumphs. I’ll copy one of my recent poems, if you don’t mind, to demonstrate.

THE PARASITES CRY DON’T KILL US (poem by Thomas Graves)

The parasites cry, Don’t kill us!
We secretly write your poetry!
That’s us, in your gut
and swimming in your veins.
The microbiome
ten thousand synapses from home.
We are the Symbol that explains.
The subconscious imagination
more fertile than a green sea.
Parasite comfort feeds all poetry.

So the poet imagined them saying,
as he drank the cure.
He always believed everything
wrote the poetry, not just him.
He knew whatever he was, in all his parts,
managed the poetry which disturbed the hearts
of the apparitions
who visited, before they existed,
the best of his visions.

He could be sick and write the best,
or be well, and be blind like the rest.
The parasites, however, had to learn
his poetry began on a cold day in Lucerne,
for all he knew, though he had never been.
Everything must perish for poetry to win.

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So ends my conversation with Christian B. I cannot resist adding one more poem, published 7 years ago on Scarriet, which serves the same rhetorical purpose, “Time Goes Back Without You.”

Time goes back without you.

It is interested in what all that going forward meant.

It finds the two of you—you and her—there you are,

Looking as you were. The lake. The trees. The cemetery’s descent.

The two of you walk slowly. It’s almost time for the moon

To rise. Talk. Kissing. Talk. More kissing, soon.

Moonrise, a joke or two, the lake, brown, and small,

More like a pond. Time hardly remembers it at all.

Time gets back, and tells you all that was seen.

“This is what I saw.”

You listen in awe;

Time seeing what it once saw: what does it mean?

“The sun was setting, but you could see and smell the green.”

Time had been there, had really gone back. You feast

On what he says. “Did she love me? How did she look?”

But he speaks of her the least.

He seems to be remembering the past from a book,

Or worse, only from memory, and the pain it took,

And soon you lose patience. “What did you want me to do?”

Time asks. “She was there. But not really with you.”

And that was it. It really is what you fear. It’s true.

Time is kind before, not after. This does not belong to you.

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I will publish “Defending The Human: Scarriet Versus The Fake” Part II.

Stay tuned!

ONE FLESH

Rosalinda, I tried to be

one flesh with her, but she resisted me.

I was stunned by her resistance,

which shone despite my storm of kisses.

She melted my poetry.

In the panting play of our desire,

my poetry was diminished by my own fire—

which, at times, burned with hers.

My poetry was passionate but too calculating,

the poetry which doesn’t say, but infers.

God did not resume in us.

We were not one, nor holy.

I was betrayed by the impetuous gesture—

which my gaudy poetry could not defend.

I embraced her sadly with compulsive poetry.

Her beauty listened but didn’t bend.

If she had a muse, it didn’t waver.

I, the love of bad, inventive, weather,

she, the calm and perfumed sea.

I abused her sweet apology.

My passion for her refused to end.

Consistency, my one calm word,

my one sweet poem,

which sings through the world like a bird.

WHATABOUTISM

The exculpatory cant of whataboutism

puts millions of minds in prison,

declaring context and history forbidden,

imprisoning up to a hundred thousand in a week.

Whataboutism, the farcical knowledge claim of atheism,

told hypothetical idealism it wasn’t allowed to speak.

Every particle of the universe had to exist

exactly as it did, for us to exist, and in the past

this perfection happened relatively fast

so that you can take a slow, deep breath

and think quite leisurely, and almost fondly—

your crumpled blankets swampy and cozy!

—of the misty prospect of your own death.

Today, immense storage of data is put in a cloud.

Cloudy idealism has triumphed over muddy

realism, at last.

But the religion against whataboutism says

mentioning even one sin from the past

is forbidden. This sin

is whataboutism. Perspective is not allowed.

You could not have any of your facts

unless they lived in a cloud.

Whataboutism critics kill in the following way

(those who use it are arrogant and proud):

I cannot rebut what you say—

anything you say about this—

by saying “but what about that?”

even if I remember a kiss,

not a Hollywood one, but innocent.

Special effects can alter that kiss.

God lost the whole world at the last second.

But was there a miraculous winning streak

following an error—an unwarranted kiss?

Did God, at the last second, rescue our bliss?

No, no. Not that. You may only talk about this.

MUSIC DISCOVERY

I discovered in the 1960s

a paradox of primitive music. Please

know me. A real innocent, I met you on

the wealthy East Side,

before John Lennon lived there,

“Girls love,” you said,

to have their nipples sucked.” I had

no idea. I was ten to your thirteen.

Vulgarity bounced right off me. I was in-between

the Seekers and the Beatles. Monumental city.

I lived “We all live in the Yellow Submarine.”

I wasn’t “Experienced.” But there’s a knowing

that is flash recognition

inside innocence and sweetly not knowing.

I had innocence which protects one.

The easy coolness of “Here Comes the Sun.”

My father loved folk and argued, tall,

with my mother, who wasn’t turned on by music at all.

Her mother played organ in the Lutheran church.

Bach made me think of the Adams Family and Lurch.

The Dalton school, when I was in detention

is where I first heard “the Doors” mentioned.

In the early 70s in the masturbating suburbs

I was finally of age to buy my own records.

My weekly allowance went up to a dollar.

I didn’t care for Chuck Berry’s holler.

Chris Williams was a weirdo, but smart.

Tommy, Hot Rocks, Surrealistic Pillow

didn’t quite break my heart. I knew

what the weirdos knew. It was necessary

I found out on my own. Isn’t that true?

My shoplifting friend (caught in Westport)

made me listen to Emerson, Lake and Palmer.

But the first album I invested in

was one by the Doors. Highly

discriminating, I soon found

the paradox of moody, musical sound—

the deeper into simplicity you go

the more there is you forget to know.

The Doors revealed in their asylum a treasure

I kept in my mind to measure.

Harmony and melody

complex, in the humming of a bee?

I didn’t take drugs. It was an understanding

of fearful, problematic, underrated me.

I learned the dangerous music descent.

Beatles, then Stones, then Doors. Jim bent

notes sonorously. A guy in New York

(I think he was a Jew) made up a rhyme:

“Your religion is a mafia front.

You fear tiny Israel” (What was Israel?

I think I was nine.) “and your beard is a cunt.”

I just looked at him and laughed.

My life is nervous laughter.

There’s more, not fit for a poem.

A poem must have good taste. I’ll tell you after.

SUBTERFUGE

I see the ice and see the snow

and feel the cold temperatures

but the sophistication of my mind

takes off like a rocket. Some people think I’m slow

but I notice the black ice, the subterfuge of its flow,

the eternal serpent underfoot,

which slithers from the mountainous snow

which drifted when it fell.

I sat by the window.

I wasn’t feeling well.

The snow is the gift which keeps on giving.

We walk down its lanes.

This poem must take pains

to describe the phenomenon

of melting in the noonday sun

and then re-freezing. This was the winter

which killed everyone.

The light went out of their eyes.

Religion was no help. A civil war of cold black and cold white

took us by surprise.

THE PARASITES CRY, “DON’T KILL US!”

The parasites cry, Don’t kill us!
We secretly write your poetry!
That’s us, in your gut
and swimming in your veins.
The microbiome
ten thousand synapses from home.
We are the Symbol that explains.
The subconscious imagination
more fertile than a green sea.
Parasite comfort feeds all poetry.

So the poet imagined them saying,
as he drank the cure.
He always believed everything
wrote the poetry, not just him.
He knew whatever he was, in all his parts,
managed the poetry which disturbed the hearts
of the apparitions
who visited, before they existed,
the best of his visions.

He could be sick and write the best,
or be well, and be blind like the rest.
The parasites, however, had to learn
his poetry began on a cold day in Lucerne,
for all he knew, though he had never been.
Everything must perish for poetry to win.



FALSE-TONGUED

The world is a high school—a very small one,
where cliques dominate
and casual insult is the cause of murder.
This is clearly why, when he’s seen as MAGA
in Boston, Massachusetts, he’s spit upon.
The world is a boarding school, a very small one.

When I was fastidious and stuck to details,
I was a boring poet. But when I was false-tongued,
and provocation was the song I sung,
they said I was great.
Even though I was good
and practiced to be good.
Strange fate.

I’M NOT FINISHED

I cannot seem to find passion anymore,

not even for her. The brown beauty she inspires

with her white, intricate dress, the ritual of conferences,

the ritual editorship (the magazine very small),

her casual, international tourism, but most of all,

the slender, Kashmiri, self-conscious, looks

which easily surpass, with neck, hair, and form

the rituals of all her literary signs and books.

I’m not finished. I have no hope of her,

yet have her, in the very thing passion leaves

burning, afterwards; but now, before, almost

blissfully, I cannot stir.

Such is my

contemplation, as I consider

she may be thinner, not from health,

but disappointment, and one is never

too young and beautiful, is one, to regret?

She stands exquisitely straight, by the fountain.

She’s more symbolic than any mountain.

I could cure her—of what? Nothing.

Passion passionately cures nothing.

It wastes every ritual. It levels them all.

Even the poet Emily Dickinson, sensing my wide

poetic mind, were our courtship a ritual

reality, I have a feeling Emily wouldn’t call.

Still, I’m not finished. I have

this poetry. I wonder

if the poet Sara Teasdale was?

Was Sara finished?

Sara died, but Sara died from love.